distorting my perspective

Just because  "sorry" is spoken that doesn't mean someone can be apologized so easily, so quickly. They need time. Have you ever been so furious till you can feel that you almost lose your control, your sanity, and gone insane? Have you ever been dumped by your own besties? Have you ever felt what is so called treason? Have somebody ever insulted or lied to you? All of them I have and they are pains.
There will be a time when people use you when they need you and abandon you after you are all idle. The problem is I can never refuse, just like the old times, I listen and treat them to the fullest, I want to change, I don't want to be nice anymore. I want alteration and not worsening my condition by being n.i.c.e