I know this will happen -______-

I want to join the last meeting so bad :(( But why it has to be on that date, what should I do, it will be super memorable if only I could join, I wish they would change their mind, and have it on 15 but why oh why. It is gonna be a Christmas event and everyone will be there, every teacher and student will gather and I bet It will be super fun. There will be students performance which is what I am really looking for. But I can't,,, due to things that can't be postponed. This is what I call as stranded. I am gonna miss the event and I will regret it. Maybe it sounds like dramatic or over-reacting, but you would feel the same way if you are standing in the position of mine. Before leaving this company the last thing I really want to do is joining the Christmas event, that's all. All of the hectic there would be worth it. You know the feeling of becoming person in charge, and those togetherness. I will regret it. I will for sure. Oh god :(
To not sound pathetic no more, well There are  lots of youtubers right, but nowadays there is someone, he is Malaysian but he's like Los-Angeles, Californian, those kev-jumba or niga. He's very cool and swag of course, go and check Joseph Germani, and he is very good-looking to me.