No longer belong there?

Earlier today I had a video call and realized she was eating out with my best friend. Something has changed when I see atmosphere and stuff through the video call that I made. I have to confess everything look the same sound the same but didn't feel the same way for me. That's the moment I know I change. I felt like it no longer work for me, I don't know if I sound comprehend-able to you right now but this is what I am situated right now.It's like imagine you have been away and having a new whole different thing for the pass 2 years, these 2 years long yet short to me, I felt like the 2 years ago me is not the same me today. Well I still act the same, behave the same but the way It think somehow conquer that I no longer want to do those thing that I see through video, they didn't seem attractive anymore. But on the other hand I am still missing home. Will I be able to find the way out?